This new way of looking at weight loss is THE BOMB! I just keep striving to do better and I keep actually getting better! Since I only weigh-in once a month, I was hopeful because I could see an improvement, but it didn't dawn on me that I actually could drop below the barrier that has been my nemesis since like forEVER. It's so good to be back!
I've altered my workout schedule a bit, but in the long run, I think I'm coming out ahead because I don't skip. While I'm working, I workout every 1.5 days, rather than everyday. It's amazing how much more doable that is! I can walk at night, then hit the gym at 4:30am a day and a half later. It's fantastic. I've also given up on trying to run. At least for now. The resulting pains just weren't worth it. I have quickened my walking pace. I'm all the way up to a 21-min mile. Hey, that beats my 24 minute ones in the beginning!
So, if you've been starting over again and again, trust me ... it will eventually work. I started over for over 10 years and I'm finally allowing it to work. And it is working! It is!
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Yep, It Works
My altered expectations (just strive to improve) worked! Scales said -5 pounds. Groovy, groovy, groovy! Not only that, but I slightly changed my set workout plans so that they made more sense, and it was way easier to do what I'd set out to do each day! Not only that, but I was thinking I'd do the gym at 4:30 am once a month (trainer days), but I actually liked it! I'm in there twice a week at the crack of nothing and bam! ... done for the whole freaking day! Not only that, but I made a little Google app/form for my trainer's circuit and it's so darned easy to do and follow. Not only that, but I got to "spend" my extra WW points last night and I did it by just eating healthy food!
I'm pleased with myself on so many levels this week! It's a joy to have shed the weird attitude I was portraying. I have no reason to hide the fact that I really love my life. Therapy will have to uncover why it was that I was doing that, but in the meantime, it is done!
About having a trainer: SO happy I did that! It is too tempting for me to jump into things I used to do, decades ago, and limp away with an injury. She has set out a plan for me to ease into things again. I can "feel" it, but it isn't a debilitating pain. It's perfect. Makes me actually look forward to going into the gym again.
I'm pleased with myself on so many levels this week! It's a joy to have shed the weird attitude I was portraying. I have no reason to hide the fact that I really love my life. Therapy will have to uncover why it was that I was doing that, but in the meantime, it is done!
About having a trainer: SO happy I did that! It is too tempting for me to jump into things I used to do, decades ago, and limp away with an injury. She has set out a plan for me to ease into things again. I can "feel" it, but it isn't a debilitating pain. It's perfect. Makes me actually look forward to going into the gym again.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Ding Dong, the Bitch is Dead!
Yesterday was a lucky day. I had a mirror held up to my face from start to finish.
First, I was up and in the gym at 4:30. That's AM, folks. Good thing, right there, but it gets better. I met with my new trainer (yes, another good thing!) and, as she was asking me questions about my eating and exercising habits, I found myself telling her these great things: I eat healthy foods, only ... I walk 2 miles almost everyday ... I'm doing Weight Watchers ... etc. Now that I think about it, she must have been cracking up inside, hearing this from a large bodied woman. She's very nice, though, and didn't let on that I was a walking anomaly. She just suggested that I change my thinking to positive expectations. Wow. I don't have a positive expectation? No, I guess I don't, come to think of it. But wait, folks, we're not done.
Later, in my FaceBook group, someone was begging for help because she had gotten so off-track with her weight-loss. I simply replied that, oh well, some of us will ALWAYS be working on it ... just get back on track again. Now, I was thinking that's a nice reply. Really. I was. I got schooled by the next guy who basically told me I'd never lose if I didn't quit thinking that way.
The day culminated in my therapist's office (a scheduled visit, not because of FaceBook) where she pretty much told me I didn't come across as a positive, happy person. What??? Me??? Of course, I'm in there for a specific issue which isn't particularly happy, so it does make some sense that I wouldn't be a bubbly bundle of joy when we talk. Still, she doesn't see the positive me at all? Mirror, mirror, on the wall ...
I have lost the power of positive thinking! When did that happen? I used to have it (and I used to be thinner!). Somehow, I've conned myself into thinking I'm still upbeat, happy, and quite the optimist, when I'm actually portraying a whole different image. Why are we the last to know these things about ourselves?
Goals! I'm setting improvement goals (therapist's suggestion) that aren't locked into a number, but just saying that I will improve in the healthy areas. I'm resetting my mental image of my physical me. I'm NOT going to succumb to a life of dieting. This is a fix-it period and then I will continue with healthy eating, but the point-counting, etc. won't be necessary. Well, that's a relief, right there!
The universe speaks to us. Sometimes it takes three messengers to get our attention, but it does speak. Goodbye, negativity!
First, I was up and in the gym at 4:30. That's AM, folks. Good thing, right there, but it gets better. I met with my new trainer (yes, another good thing!) and, as she was asking me questions about my eating and exercising habits, I found myself telling her these great things: I eat healthy foods, only ... I walk 2 miles almost everyday ... I'm doing Weight Watchers ... etc. Now that I think about it, she must have been cracking up inside, hearing this from a large bodied woman. She's very nice, though, and didn't let on that I was a walking anomaly. She just suggested that I change my thinking to positive expectations. Wow. I don't have a positive expectation? No, I guess I don't, come to think of it. But wait, folks, we're not done.
Later, in my FaceBook group, someone was begging for help because she had gotten so off-track with her weight-loss. I simply replied that, oh well, some of us will ALWAYS be working on it ... just get back on track again. Now, I was thinking that's a nice reply. Really. I was. I got schooled by the next guy who basically told me I'd never lose if I didn't quit thinking that way.
The day culminated in my therapist's office (a scheduled visit, not because of FaceBook) where she pretty much told me I didn't come across as a positive, happy person. What??? Me??? Of course, I'm in there for a specific issue which isn't particularly happy, so it does make some sense that I wouldn't be a bubbly bundle of joy when we talk. Still, she doesn't see the positive me at all? Mirror, mirror, on the wall ...
I have lost the power of positive thinking! When did that happen? I used to have it (and I used to be thinner!). Somehow, I've conned myself into thinking I'm still upbeat, happy, and quite the optimist, when I'm actually portraying a whole different image. Why are we the last to know these things about ourselves?
Goals! I'm setting improvement goals (therapist's suggestion) that aren't locked into a number, but just saying that I will improve in the healthy areas. I'm resetting my mental image of my physical me. I'm NOT going to succumb to a life of dieting. This is a fix-it period and then I will continue with healthy eating, but the point-counting, etc. won't be necessary. Well, that's a relief, right there!
The universe speaks to us. Sometimes it takes three messengers to get our attention, but it does speak. Goodbye, negativity!
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Was That Over a Month Ago?
Oy. My NO EXCUSES post was more than a month ago? Seems like last week. So, did I stick to it? I'd say yes, but it has been A MONTH! I'm not the quickest bunny in the patch. Here is what I have done:
Here is what I haven't done:
Now, looking at the list, I see that I do like to beat myself up. Sure, I could have done a whole lot more, but my "dids" are bigger than my "didn'ts" and I need to get excited about that. As for the second list, shoot ... I'll just do them! Plan A: plan my gym time in advance to include toning/cardio. I can do that.
- Tracked food and activity in Weight Watchers
- Made modifications to the foods I normally eat, so they will fit into the tracker
- Signed up for a personal trainer
- Had my first evaluation meeting (including measurements and weight!)
- Walked at least 2 miles/day most days
Here is what I haven't done:
- Have not hit the gym, once, outside of the evaluation
- Have not pushed myself in toning or cardio
- Have not used my two week vacation time well
Now, looking at the list, I see that I do like to beat myself up. Sure, I could have done a whole lot more, but my "dids" are bigger than my "didn'ts" and I need to get excited about that. As for the second list, shoot ... I'll just do them! Plan A: plan my gym time in advance to include toning/cardio. I can do that.
Saturday, February 18, 2012
NONE!
Rob posted on a thread: "Thanks, Garri. I hope this motivates you, too!" Motivates me? I don't need motivation, I thought to myself. I'm a very motivated girl!
Really?
I mean ... really?
I did restart my walks and I'm almost up to 2 miles/day. Whoop freaking eeee. I have allowed myself to sit for the past two days because "I'm so busy at work." No way I should allow myself to let "work" get in the way of getting healthier. There's my #1!
Foodwise, I'm full of it. This bouncing around from one new idea to another is stupid. I really end up doing nothing of value, in the long run. I'm sucking it up and joining WW. I've so resisted that organization because of one stab at it in 1972, when I actually gained a pound while sticking to it religiously. That was 40 years ago! It works for everyone else. I'm just not that anomalous.
As the show says, NO EXCUSES! None. Zero. Nada. Rien.
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Pass GO ... eventually
Ridiculous. I'm doing more than starting over. I'm starting over from BEHIND the starting line. Though I'm off steroids after two rounds, my leg is still numb and now I literally get winded just taking a walk. Ugh! However, starting over regardless. Keeping record is easy, since we're also recording our miles at work right now, so it's all on my calendar. One mile/day sounds ridiculous, I know, but it's the best I can do. And I'm happy that I'm doing it.
I cancelled my scheduled week at the ridge with regrets. It's almost a month away, and I just can't see getting myself up to enough speed to be able to put out for seven hours a day by then. That does NOT mean that I'll stop trying; no, no, no! I'll keep improving. Again.
Diet wise, I have actually gone back to the Primal Body idea. By mistake, I heard the interview with the author again and it just kept ringing true. This time, I'm taking it slowly and tracking my food as gas, paper, kindling, and logs. The goal will be to primarily eat above-ground veggies and proteins. I admit that I eat a very lowfat, carb-based diet now. She says this is training my body to ignore the proteins when it should be living off of them.
So I'm not the Queen of Inspiration right now. Sigh.
I cancelled my scheduled week at the ridge with regrets. It's almost a month away, and I just can't see getting myself up to enough speed to be able to put out for seven hours a day by then. That does NOT mean that I'll stop trying; no, no, no! I'll keep improving. Again.
Diet wise, I have actually gone back to the Primal Body idea. By mistake, I heard the interview with the author again and it just kept ringing true. This time, I'm taking it slowly and tracking my food as gas, paper, kindling, and logs. The goal will be to primarily eat above-ground veggies and proteins. I admit that I eat a very lowfat, carb-based diet now. She says this is training my body to ignore the proteins when it should be living off of them.
So I'm not the Queen of Inspiration right now. Sigh.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
VOTE FOR ME! please?
Chances are, I don't know you. Most of my friends aren't into diet and exercise. They aren't even clicking on my vote button for the Jennie-O breakfast contest. So I'm pleading with my five followers and anyone else who may trip across my blog. You won't be hounded by some virtual turkey, but if you could spare a click a day, I would really, really love to win the two weeks at the Biggest Loser Resort. I have not been able to put the cash together for TWO weeks. It would be huge.
Now, about my status to date. I'm NOT letting circumstances hold me back. No sir. I'll just keep on, because that's what a person does. Loser for Soup helped me realize that you don't ever quit, just because you don't always win. Ok, so I did know that, but it helps to hear it again from someone else who is fighting the same fight. I'm all the way UP to walking a half mile/day. Wow. Blow to the ego. I was disappointed that I only did a couple of miles a day, before. Oh well, better to be in the game, than out! Our school district started a walking contest, so I created a website and pseudo "app" for our school. Now, I have to do it, you see?
Bumped into a friend last night and, in talking with her, I heard how happy I am. Yes, I was listening to myself speak. I am so thrilled with my job, my life, etc. This blog may look like I'm focusing on the negative. I'm not. It is just the one place where I dump my darkest part of my life ... weight. One of these days, though, there shall be light in this corner, too!
Jennie-O Breakfast contest link:
Now, about my status to date. I'm NOT letting circumstances hold me back. No sir. I'll just keep on, because that's what a person does. Loser for Soup helped me realize that you don't ever quit, just because you don't always win. Ok, so I did know that, but it helps to hear it again from someone else who is fighting the same fight. I'm all the way UP to walking a half mile/day. Wow. Blow to the ego. I was disappointed that I only did a couple of miles a day, before. Oh well, better to be in the game, than out! Our school district started a walking contest, so I created a website and pseudo "app" for our school. Now, I have to do it, you see?
Bumped into a friend last night and, in talking with her, I heard how happy I am. Yes, I was listening to myself speak. I am so thrilled with my job, my life, etc. This blog may look like I'm focusing on the negative. I'm not. It is just the one place where I dump my darkest part of my life ... weight. One of these days, though, there shall be light in this corner, too!
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