Was That Over a Month Ago?

Oy. My NO EXCUSES post was more than a month ago? Seems like last week. So, did I stick to it? I'd say yes, but it has been A MONTH! I'm not the quickest bunny in the patch. Here is what I have done:

• Tracked food and activity in Weight Watchers
• Made modifications to the foods I normally eat, so they will fit into the tracker
• Signed up for a personal trainer
• Had my first evaluation meeting (including measurements and weight!)
• Walked at least 2 miles/day most days

Here is what I haven't done:

• Have not hit the gym, once, outside of the evaluation
• Have not pushed myself in toning or cardio
• Have not used my two week vacation time well

Now, looking at the list, I see that I do like to beat myself up. Sure, I could have done a whole lot more, but my "dids" are bigger than my "didn'ts" and I need to get excited about that. As for the second list, shoot ... I'll just do them! Plan A: plan my gym time in advance to include toning/cardio. I can do that.

NONE!

Rob posted on a thread: "Thanks, Garri. I hope this motivates you, too!" Motivates me? I don't need motivation, I thought to myself. I'm a very motivated girl!

Really?

I mean ... really?

I did restart my walks and I'm almost up to 2 miles/day. Whoop freaking eeee. I have allowed myself to sit for the past two days because "I'm so busy at work." No way I should allow myself to let "work" get in the way of getting healthier. There's my #1!

Foodwise, I'm full of it. This bouncing around from one new idea to another is stupid. I really end up doing nothing of value, in the long run. I'm sucking it up and joining WW. I've so resisted that organization because of one stab at it in 1972, when I actually gained a pound while sticking to it religiously. That was 40 years ago! It works for everyone else. I'm just not that anomalous.

As the show says, NO EXCUSES! None. Zero. Nada. Rien.

Pass GO ... eventually

Ridiculous. I'm doing more than starting over. I'm starting over from BEHIND the starting line. Though I'm off steroids after two rounds, my leg is still numb and now I literally get winded just taking a walk. Ugh! However, starting over regardless. Keeping record is easy, since we're also recording our miles at work right now, so it's all on my calendar. One mile/day sounds ridiculous, I know, but it's the best I can do. And I'm happy that I'm doing it.

I cancelled my scheduled week at the ridge with regrets. It's almost a month away, and I just can't see getting myself up to enough speed to be able to put out for seven hours a day by then. That does NOT mean that I'll stop trying; no, no, no! I'll keep improving. Again.

Diet wise, I have actually gone back to the Primal Body idea. By mistake, I heard the interview with the author again and it just kept ringing true. This time, I'm taking it slowly and tracking my food as gas, paper, kindling, and logs. The goal will be to primarily eat above-ground veggies and proteins. I admit that I eat a very lowfat, carb-based diet now. She says this is training my body to ignore the proteins when it should be living off of them.

So I'm not the Queen of Inspiration right now. Sigh.

VOTE FOR ME! please?

Chances are, I don't know you. Most of my friends aren't into diet and exercise. They aren't even clicking on my vote button for the Jennie-O breakfast contest. So I'm pleading with my five followers and anyone else who may trip across my blog. You won't be hounded by some virtual turkey, but if you could spare a click a day, I would really, really love to win the two weeks at the Biggest Loser Resort. I have not been able to put the cash together for TWO weeks. It would be huge.

Jennie-O Breakfast contest link:  

http://www.facebook.com/jennieoturkey?sk=app_208066882621169&app_data=72

Now, about my status to date. I'm NOT letting circumstances hold me back. No sir. I'll just keep on, because that's what a person does. Loser for Soup helped me realize that you don't ever quit, just because you don't always win. Ok, so I did know that, but it helps to hear it again from someone else who is fighting the same fight. I'm all the way UP to walking a half mile/day. Wow. Blow to the ego. I was disappointed that I only did a couple of miles a day, before. Oh well, better to be in the game, than out! Our school district started a walking contest, so I created a website and pseudo "app" for our school. Now, I have to do it, you see? 


Bumped into a friend last night and, in talking with her, I heard how happy I am. Yes, I was listening to myself speak. I am so thrilled with my job, my life, etc. This blog may look like I'm focusing on the negative. I'm not. It is just the one place where I dump my darkest part of my life ... weight. One of these days, though, there shall be light in this corner, too!

SO Many Lessons to Learn!

Yeah, I thought I had that figured out. My eating isn't emotional, but I still ballooned in weight gain. Dr. visit today regarding this thing that's going on and the scales were so rude!! Like 6 pounds up! I'm on steroids, which is most likely the cause, but oy!

Exercise is still on hold but I should be able to do walks again in a week. I'm really, really looking forward to it!

Lessons to Learn

Several days of following my exercise plans with my shiny new Polar and BAM! The back goes out again. There's a lesson here, which I will learn. As soon as I can walk upright.

On the diet scene, I blew that off the minute an emotional upheaval hit the house, following the back thing. It has been a giant roller coaster that I sincerely don't want to get on again. Silver lining: I'm NOT an emotional eater! Not in the least bit. I had to make myself eat things so I could take Advil. Still, not worth the ride, but good to know I'm not going to balloon in weight after this week.

Lesson Learned: Sometimes, you just don't get to be the master of your universe. Get over it.

I'm Posting Again BECAUSE ...

Loser for Soup just posted a New Year's blog that is spot on. We say we want to lose weight, at least I do, but why? I've spent so many years/decades saying I want to ... I need to ... I must, yet I've never been specific.

My because has changed over the years, I realize. Used to be that I wanted to look hot again. Yeah, well that ship has left the harbor! Now I'm a grandma and so darned stuck in my ways, I highly doubt that there are any grandpas who could tolerate me, so "hot" is out. And wrinkles just look silly on hot bodies. Then again, I would enjoy being amazingly snappy for my age. Snappy is not trying to be "hot", but rather being vibrant and cute. That would be fun.

Still, at 61, I'm really thinking more about keeping the chasis running, rather than giving it a shiny paint job. I'm taking all kinds of meds, which just goes against everything that I stand for. Shedding tonnage would knock out three of them. Now, THAT is a because! (The fourth one keeps the world safe from hormonal explosions which can erupt without warning, so we won't even entertain taking that off the list.)

My list of becauses:

1. I want to lose weight because I want to get off of the stupid medicines.
2. I want to lose weight because I would love to be the snappy-looking grammi.
3. I want to be more active because exercise actually lifts my spirits and makes regular walking less painful.
4. I want to lose weight because reduced weight-pressure on my knees and feet would actually make walking a fun experience, again.
5. I want to say no to white starches because they give nothing of value to my body. (See Boo's poster, below.)

One other stolen quote from Jessica on the BLR FaceBook page:

  Sweat is just fat cells, crying. 

Love that!

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS!