Ok, So I'm Not an Inspiration

We all go through tough motivational ups and downs. I am marching on!

My decision to re-up at BLR lasted about a day. I really got myself out there and moving, thinking I had a long way to go to get myself back into enough shape to go get in shape. Then, a strange thing happened on the way to the registration button ... I realized I could do it myself, because I WAS doing it myself. I could put the money elsewhere.

Some friends and I are cruising Hawaii during Thanksgiving, instead. I can't wait, but here's the downside. I stopped moving! What the HECK is wrong with me? Was it knowing I wasn't going to get beat up at the ridge, or do I just always quit after a few days? Here's what I do know. I spend waaaaaaaay too much time on work, but not because I'm so conscientious, though I am. It's really because I love, love, love all things computer, so I just keep dawdling.

Who let HER in here?

GIVING UP?

Today I entertained a total giving up on this whole thing. I'm so incredibly tired everyday that I'm not moving and, because I'm not moving, I'm more tired. I would have to go to bed at 7:30 to get a full 8 hours, and I have an 8-hour body. Staying at work until 5ish every night isn't helping. I left by 3:30 today, but only because I knew I had the whole weekend to work. I don't know what I'm going to do about this.

I almost signed up for another week at BLR during Thanksgiving, and I still may. I NEED to get back into it! It's just so hard, when your head is foggy. Something has got to happen, quickly.

Grammi isn't very happy with herself.